Frustrated

Well, another week has passed. Suddenly, this semester is about to end. I am confused. Is it really the life I want? I just feel overwhelmed by assignments, school works and part-time job. For the long time I have persuaded something, is it really important? Do I choose the right path? There are questions all over my world. I can’t see myself. Where is my position? On the other hand, even myself, do I really know what I want?
Or I am just fitting somebody else’s expectation? Days and weeks go by. Suddenly I am a sophomore. The world is too big to explore through my inadequacy ability. However, I still don’t know what acquisitions I need to acquire. Isn’t it worthy to upset with?
Time goes by and it won’t wait for anybody. Maybe it is time for me to think about what I should do in the future. I could slow down my path and find out where I am. I believe that I will find my way no matter where it head to. After all, the future has numberless possibilities waiting for me to reveal. I guess what I can do now is pull myself together and do my best. At least, I need to survive this semester. There is no any room for me to get any trouble anymore.

Sex and The City

I’ve been watching “Sex and the City” these days. You know, the series. There were many attitudes which may disagree with many people, but I think anyone has his/her right to persuade happiness. Although it sometimes bothers other people, after all, everybody has different definition about happiness. I think in the series, those four women know exactly what they want. They did suffer or sadden because some of their choices. However, I admire their braveness to make choice. They hundred-percent seize the moment in the series. They just did what they want and be what they are, most importantly, try to be happy.
I like the heroine Carrie Bradshaw, who is a columnist, most. The lives of the lovelorn and the love-seeking in New York City become her fodder for his column. As fodder for her column, single and fabulous Carrie looks to the experiences of her best friends and her own. As the result, she always sums up a series with clever sentences, which always is a question. It point out the struggle of the city men and women and also their attitude toward love and relationship. The situations they met also happen around us. We laugh and sigh or feel sorry about something as heroine in the series feel. It gives an option or, in some degree, an answer to some emotional problems which happen everyday. It is like samples, which show us how people would react when they encounter similar situation. The series help me know more about men and women and most importantly, the cleverish wits in the series with sense of humor make me laugh.

No title

Well, it is another Friday. Time goes by. My sophomore year has already gone by a quarter. I have no idea what I have done in these days. I just feel like overwhelmed. Sometimes you just can’t get the thing which you really want done. We always think about doing this and that. Apparently most of them stay in our mind and never been fulfilled. This is kind of pathetic and alarming for me. I know if this situation keep going and going. There will be someday I will just give them up and try to focus my whole heart with so-called reality. Then I will become a grown man or matured without any imagination. For me, I am pretty sure that I don’t want this happen to me. I prefer the feeling that there is a little boy living in my mind no matter time goes by. I cherish that naivete and I believe it is that naivete which makes me happy. That is the key to make me optimistic. That is the key for me to get rid of daily routines and hide from noisy world. You know, you can’t satisfy everyone’s need. If you just live for satisfy people, and then your life will be nothing. I don’t care what people think. I just want to be myself. Although it seems a little bit childish.

I've been wondering.....

I've been wondering these day that why people always wearing mask. There are very few people show truly themself when they first meet someone. People always try to behave polite or gentle, in my opinion, I think that makes me feel like a doll. These kind of manner to get along with people gradually become a fomula. If someone doesn't behave like which the society wish him to be, then s/he will be considered wicked or weird. It seems like that everyone is controlled by some concealed power. In the matter of fact, it is us who bound ourself. Especially in Taiwan, Confucianism tells us from our text books through out whole education system, that we should act this and that to make youself suitable for the society. I mean, it's good to keep order, but I can't help but to wonder, "Must it be that complicated?" I think order is good but when it kill everybody's imagination, especially kids' imagination, then maybe we should reconsider if those ancient philosophy still acceptable for the modern society like present. I am not try to be misanthropic or what. I just think that it will be more fun to encourage children to use their imagination instead of force them memorize those belated philosophy. That's me. It is just a little comment about the society. I am not an anarchist. Don't call the policeXD.

Just diary

Temperature goes down these days. It suddenly makes me feel like winter. In some degree, I prefer winter more than summer. I always feel that winter is perfectly suit for me. I walk alone in the campus, law temperature won’t bother me. On opposite, it makes me feel good. Somebody says winter is gloomy, but for me, winter is glamorous, which like a beauty with pride and elegance. She cannot be easy to get along with, but after you get acquaint with her, she can be fascinated. You can never be introduced by somebody to her. She is like nobility, flooding blue blood, can not be easily pleased and like the most of aristocrats, she is alone, eager to be understand. Unfortunately, she doesn’t know how to do, so she hides these emotions behind the gloomy and blowing wind. Do you want to know more about her? If the answer is “Yes”, then find a quiet bench around the campus. Sit down quietly and check around you, you can find her anywhere. The blowing wind is her breath and the branches are her hair and the slight mist is her evening dress. Sometimes, slow down your path, sit and check the world with different degrees, then you can find how adorable does the world be. Enjoy every wind blow and try to catch what is said by the whisper wind. Maybe they are trying to know you for a long time, but you just turn the deaf ear to them. You will fine this is a beautiful world with surprises.

Day dreaming XD

I am sitting in the cafe shop where I do the part-time job at, and listen to the Italian guy, who play live band in our store, singing 60s songs. He play nice guitar, and he is such a nice guy. He always tell us (I mean another co-workers and I.) about his experiences in Europe. I am thinking that it gotta be great to travel around the world, but it will no doubt cost a lot of money. It doesn’t matter. If I want to go to a trip to Europe, a credit card probably will be the only thing I bring. Ha! It won’t be any fun if I got everything set. I don’t like schedule, especially when I plan to go traveling. I like the feeling that with no bound. I can spent as much time as I want to know a place by my own senses like I said in the journal, which talked about Che Cuevara. Maybe someday, I will take myself as a traveler for a while. I want to get rid of stresses or daily routine life, and go many places. I want to go Europe, to see how brilliant those places we read from the textbook do. It must be great to experience these but own feet, just like the old Chinese proverb say, “It is more practical you experience yourself than you just read from books.”

Diary

It seems like another week has passed. These days I can't help but feel my days become more and more busy. Everything overwhelmed, like a flood. I have a part-time job, a tutoring, and not mention there are many school works for me to handle, but actually I enjoy this kind of substantiality. I’ve been too leisure during summer vacation. I don’t think that is a good idea for a college student. Although it is really busy, I still have time to read the extracurricular books and even play some PC games. Because of these reasons, I have nothing to complain about. The freshmen camping in our department is about to begin, so it is no doubt that it will be more and more busy in a least a month to come. In my opinion, I rather busy than have nothing to do.

The Jungle Law

Recently, I’ve read a book which is about a revolution hero of South American. He is named Ernest Che Cuevara who is a guerilla leader of whom in charge of many assaults against Capitalism oppression toward The Third World countries. He devoted himself to fight for freedom of South American people. Some people consider him as an anarchist, but I rather consider him as a freedom fighter. No matter on the aspects of politic divergences and life itself.
The book is a traveling diary when he was 24 years old. His friend and he rode motorcycles from Argentina through the almost whole South America. The book record what he saw and heard during the traveling through a young and fearless soul. All the beautiful landscapes and magnificence of South America were like sparkling jewels which inspired young Cuevara’s mind. Except the spectacular beauties of landscape, the sorrows and tears of oppressed people under the colonialism and capitalism would also shock the young spirit of revolutionist.
People believe that it is the trip which makes him make up his mind to change the life of South-America people.
I couldn’t be more agree that a college graduated student should walk out and know the world through their own senses. People say that students are living in the ivory tower. There are too many beauties and too many cruelties in this world. We are too naïve to understand. Although we have absorbed much academic knowledge in the field which we majored, I have sufficient reasons to believe that we haven’t well-prepared yet for the brutal realities of this world. On my opinion, I think that we won’t be well-prepared until we really know this world. A trip to a strange place, maybe go aboard, can be a good idea for a freshman of society to realize how cruel or how magnificent of this world. I strongly believe that no one can easily survive in the world of the jungle law before he/she has known the world well.

My Philosophy of Life

Everyone has their own philosophies to deal with many different things in the daily life. Different people encounter with same situation always turn out to be different. It all depends on one’s personality and one's philosophy toward life. I'm not an exception. I also have my own philosophy. You might hear about a classic western old rock song. It calls “Let it Be” by “The Beatles” which published in 1970, as soon as it publish the song became the most popular rock song on this planet in short time. The first line lyrics of this song which is like” When I find myself in time of trouble, Mother Mary comes to me. Speaking word of wisdom: let it be” Just like the lyrics of this song saying, I think the best philosophy to deal with obstacles of life is that try one’s best and let it be! In fact, there is no any person can decide anyone’s destiny so all we can do is do our best. I rather live happy but no regrets than in the shadow of the pity. “Let it be” seems negative but, in fact, I consider it more aggressive than many other glossy maxims. However, there is a prerequisite need to be follow when somebody hold” let it be” as his philosophy. That is, you need to try your best first. I keep it as my philosophy all the time, because I know, everything will not always smooth going. Unpredictable things always happen. Life is interesting because unpredictability and uncertainty. So when I face troubles, I would not complain about it, because I know that is what life should be. I would try whatever I can to fix the problems and leave the rest uncertainties alone. That is a small tip for me to be happy and that is my philosophy for my life.